I am Amanda. I am 25 years old. I am living in Dangjin, South Korea teaching English in an after-school government sponsored program. Basically, I teach 15 hours a week and have a ton of fun.
Thankfully, I am 25. I have thought a lot about these questions. It took me seven years to graduate college, and by the end of it I decided what I had always considered--I want to teach, at least for a while. I also wanted to travel. I want to see the world. It has always fascinated me, Europe especially, much more than living in the United States has. The grass is always greener, I suppose. My biggest goal is by next year, to be TESOL certified and still teaching, preferably older students. I hope to be living in Prague. The schools for certification that I have been looking at are all in Prague--I'd like to go and never leave.
My next hope or whatever is much less career driven. I have spent the last few years totally focused on career, future, school--not on my personal life. I'm a bit afraid of it, to be honest. After Louie, I chose being alone over possibly being destroyed that way. Sure, I'd make excuses. I still live at home. I'm still in college. I wait tables and I wouldn't date me, were I one of the guys I'd consider dating. But now it's different. I'm living on my own. I'm working, on my way to a career. Hopefully, I'll be settled down at some point. Or maybe not--I think I've begun to accept that too. For so long, I was so focused on being in the right place for a relationship. That I had to be complete. Not allow a man to complete me. Now it might be a bit of both. Lives collide, things happen, plans change. I have to be more open, to a lot of things really. Open to having my heart broken again. Open to losing control.
So those are my goals, on this day one.
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